The Inner Circle

Heh life is never simple. I’m no better of knowing who’s doing what. Although I’ve spoken to numerous people that are going, they all think it’s at Millies house at 7pm. So I’ll tag a long with a few of them who are going.

If Mark’s there, then I’ll just have to deal with it. I’m not a violent person, so the worst that’s gonna happen is my ego being bruised. Oh and being upset, but it’s a chance. At the end of the day I still want to be Millies friend, so I’m gonna have to get used to seeing her with others.

One reason I think Millie maybe off with me is that I’ve been talking to Rhian. Appart from the fact Mil only just gets on with her, she may think I’m flirting with her. If she still cares about me, that’s gonna hurt her. Similar situ to her and Mark I suppose.

That’ll play for now,

Pete.

Well, I’ve been over. I’m not sure how things are between us. There was something wrong there, but she wouldn’t tell me. I’m willing to bet it she’s seeing Mark again.

I’ll go into uni later and bump into her and find out what it is. I’ll just ask her, striaght out, “are you seeing Mark again?”. I don’t want to damage what friendship we have left, but at the end of the day, I want/need to know.

Right, now it’s time to find Sarah and get her to tell me what’s really going on tonight. I suspect Laura was either not informed last night when she told me or that she was purposly lying. Either is just as likly.

Time to go try and sort out my life.

Catch you later folks,

Pete.

Weeee, I just returned from swimming. Heh, getting up at 7am to go swimming plain sucks, but atleast it’s healthy. Although the big fry up at Phil and Pauls afterwards probably screw that over.

It’s Millies birthday today and she’s basically giving me a blank. Maybe she’s having a hard time, but I doubt it. She’s not that attached to me, or that she told me anyway.

But I still doubt it. I spoke with Paul privatly, after she had gone, it appears that they are having a party, tonight at 7:30pm, god knows if I’m gonna attend.

I asked how they where gonna keep her outa the house to set it up, Paul said that “Mark was gonna take her out for a meal”… and there’s someone who I thought was outa the picture. Maybe he is, but just friends…. probably not.

I’m not sure what’s going on, I’d just like to know, so I can get it all sorted out for myself. I hate being blanked. Aweful feeling.

Anyway, I’m off to run her present to her, we’ll see, if she’s not there, I’ll try and have a word with Sarah and see if she can at least let me know what’s going on.

Adios,

Pete.

Well this is yet again another attempt to keep an online diary. Several months have passed since I last wrote an entry on the old drunkstudent.net. This is a new script, although does just about the same thing.

What’s happened in my life? Well, not much really. I’ve been at university, studying.

My DALnet life has been relativly idle. I’ve moved from arcor.* for personal reasons, moved to valhall.*, moved from it due to oper cut backs and now I’m resident on jade.*. All this so I can oper on colt.* if/when it links, is it all worth it…

The biggest things that’s happened in my life recently is Millie. Yes a female companion, although as of today is just a friend again. I met Millie about two months ago now (can it be that long?), she’s in most of my class’, so I quickly got to know her.

About two weeks after I knew her things kinda happened, and we ended up seeing each other, going out a little etc. Certain things happened that troubled us, but thoose where slowly overcome.

However paradise started to slip away about a week ago. Infact a week ago I was at hers sleeping. On Tuesday day, we where kinda off with each other for some reason, on Wednesday it got worse, on Thursday it was bad, I ended up getting upset and sending a rather narky text message which didn’t go down well. So I ended up going and talking with her, finding out she was generally pissed off with me and I of her for various reasons.

After a lot of thought last night, and thought this morning in American Graffite (Staffs University Cafe), I decided that it would be best if her and I tried to go back to being friends. At least for now, although I didn’t say to her I’d be interesting in seeing her again, perhaps I should have.

We kinda found the root of the problem, we bother mirror our partners actions, ie the old addage, “do to others what you want done to you”. Millie or I was off with each other one day, so the next day we mirrored that, and where unhappy, and it kinda spiraled outa control. Now we know, can we avoid it if we try again?

Is it worth trying again? Yes, there’s only 2 weeks of term and 4 of study leave left, but is it worth it? I’d hope so, I care for her, and I connect with her on a very close level. Very strange for knowning someone so little time.

On a happyer note, it’s her birthday tommorow, which will be fun although we’re not gonna do anything. Probably just a small group of us go out for drinks, which’ll be nice. She ordered me not to get a present, but heh, I couldn’t resist. Chocolate can win most womens hearts. Heh.

Looking forward to the future, I need to find a year placement for my university degree in the computing industry. So if you have a company that’d like a highly qualified student for computing work (technical/networks/programming preferably) let me know. Oh I don’t do support!

So life goes on, and I’ll try and keep writing in this thing. I’m tempted to make the computer remind me to write in it, but that’s going a little far. Heh.

Adios for now folks,

Pete.