The Inner Circle

Well I’m feeling a little better now. Although no real reason to. Millie and I just talked about what’s been happening and then about us.

At one point it came around to me saying something along the lines of “You have to decide what you want”, I repied with “The one thing I want, I can’t have”. She just hugged me, I don’t know why but just hugging helps.

We’re strangely still close, well that’s what I feel. I may be completely wrong. It’s strange that Millie and I can talk at such a personal level to each other, but we can’t to our other friends. Perhaps we just trust each other so much.

I still miss her, I guess the phone call made me realise how much I still missed her.

Oh well, Andy and I are probably off for a drink later. Hopefully that’ll help a little bit.

I want more hugs! Heh, selfish, but it helps. I’ve also decided that I am going to show Millie my diary, I just hope she doesn’t think I’m completely fucked up.

Pete.

Hmmm, sometimes I have to question Millies feelings/friendship. Sometimes it feels like I get put to the side. Well perhaps I do, I mean, there’s no real reason why she should put me first. I guess I just feel hurt because I love her still.

Maybe I’m just being stupid. Maybe not, she’s coming over at 7pm now. So I guess she’s probably not going out tonight. Maybe her and I could go out for a drink on our own or something. It’d just be good.

Later,

Peter

I’m feeling down for no real reason, I didn’t feel like eating earlier, but I was hungery. So I shoved a BigMac down my throught and now I just feel ill. I don’t know why I’m feeling like this.

Millies coming over in about 30 minutes, it ends up she didn’t go to Alton Towers today as they couldn’t arange enough transport. I saw Phil and Rhian walk into town earlier, so I’m sure their still having their sorded love affair. *chuckle*

Fneh, I’m worried about what Millies gonna say, I want to find out if her feelings have changed at all, or if it was just the alchol talking the other night when she range me.

I guess we’ll see relativly shortly,

Adios for now,

Pete.

I’m still worried about Millie, she’s probably in stafford now. She was supposed to ring me at some point today when she got here. But she didn’t. She’s off to Alton Towers tommorow, so I won’t get to see her all day. Although I think it’s unlikly she’ll go out on Wednesday night, although there’s nothing really stoping her apart from tired ness.

The university skip is back, and we’ve got stuff out of it. We’ve got loads of cabling, all sorts of network trinkets. But the highlights include 3 Wyse termins, one of which I’m on atm, plugged into the other highlight. I’ve got a AlphaStation 200, we’ve put FreeBSD on it and it’s working well. Although I’m currently ssh’d into rubidium.* to write this. The new machine is called tungsten.*, it’s pritty slow. But it’s nice to have something unusal. It also looks kinda cool. Picture at http://www.drunkstudent.net/servers.jpg.

I’m also expecting to get a UPS from Paul (Griffin) in the next few days, that’ll hopefully solve some of our power issues. Our house ran out of power this morning, which was really anoying.

Oh well, that about wrapps it up for now, I’m just missing Millie atm, hoping she’ll call or at least txt me tommorow.

Adios for now,

Pete.

Well fneh. I’m feeling so tired. I went to bed at 10:30pm last night to try and catch up on my sleep. Although I woke up this morning not feeling to great, just generally tired again.

I noticed when I woke up I had a missed call from A-Joy, I had my phone on silent last night, so I didn’t hear it. I read her diary this morning, I now feel quilty that I didn’t answer the phone. I now have someone elses pain on my consious.

Sigh, that’s made me feel like shit.

Millie SMS’d me last night thanking me for being there, she also said see you soon. So I’m looking forward to going to see her and giving her a biiig hug/cuddle.

Let’s hope things get better today,

Pete.