The Inner Circle

Heh, a short one today I’m feeling okey atm, really. I’ve got a great group of friends as a support net, thanks guys.

I guess my moods have been like the needle on a seismograph during an earthquake :).

Cheers to all,

D.

Well, some of you may have seen things appearing here and then disappearing over the past few days. I haven’t exactly been feeling to good recently.

Yeasturday I was happy and fine, then in the evening after I got back in from a few drinks with Mark it hit rock bottom again, and this morning I wasn’t to good. Although this afternoon I guess things are as okey as they where before, but under different circumstances.

The worst part about any situation is not knowing where you stand, the applies to recent events and to the entire job situation.

I’m not sure what I’m gonna do tonight, I’m not 100% but I should really try and put a good face on. I’m writing this just so people don’t think that I’m about to go jump off a bridge or something.

I’m feeling okey, a bit tender, but we’ll see how that goes, I hope better. There aint really much other news, as part of a government initiative I now have to go to the Jobcenter once a week for six weeks, I assume it’s their way of weeding out the lazy fuckers. Bleh. I need to start mailing out my CV’s.

Bleh bleh, I’m [not] okey (I promise ;), Bailrigg playlist anyone?

P.

Well I’m now home in Cheshire again, I’m not feeling as bad as I did last night. A good nights sleep in my own bed seems to have done wonders.

And emotionally I’m feeling better too, I feel more settled with a brighter outlook on the future. Having a break away from things really allows you to get them sorted out.

There’s some things I want to write, but I can’t, I guess it’s time to look at community.alastria.net again and rework it completely. Finaly get the different sections I had previously wanted.

I might sit down and design that today, make it nice and simple to start with. “Yay”. So much to do, so little time to do it in. I must get some where significant on ANRPOS by the end of the week, the new network protocols would be a good start. They should be much faster and easier to use.

Oh well

TTFN,

D.

Bleh, as a follow up to yeasturday, I thought things where better, but they aint. I still feel bad, sigh. Not sure what else to put in there.

I was out with Sara and Kimball at fireworks, I felt worse for a few reasons, it was very crowded which I didn’t enjoy, the music was making me emotional… :(, also seeing countless couples about didn’t feel good.

I’m not really in the right frame of mind to construct a proper blog…

Feelin crap,

D.

I’m not sure why I’m not feeling to good… I’m guessing I’m missing uni, being up here kinda reminds me of that and makes me feel sad that I’m not there now.

I guess it also reminds me of happier times with Millie… I miss having a SO, I think that seeing John and Ali together doesn’t help, they seem happy, just like I used to be. Same applies for Kimball and Sara. Heh, even two others (who shall remain nameless) flirting about hits it home too.

Seems odd to get so anoyed about it, but hey, I guess it’s something thats missing and making me feel lonely, especially back home. Just got a SMS off of someone that I used to date at home too, which didn’t help.

Bleh, I guess I should get some more work done. Hurts inside…

D.